Reply To: Social Acceptance.

[Krystal Garven]

Hi Andrew , it’s a mind ” F ” to want to be and feel female and yet going through a male puberty – when I was young around 18 I used to look at Penthouse and Playboy magazines not to get off as a male would but seeing that my equipment was not like the images were and dreaming of having the same was a brutal wanting desire to enjoy what they had – in 1981 I had a nervous breakdown at 23 years old couldn’t eat, barely get up and go to the bathroom for 3 months , I was down to 148 lbs basically I was dying and in denial of my true gender and why did I have an electrical shock of my hole body while driving , I thought I maybe had a stroke driving in Edmonton Alberta and went to a clinic then hospital where a nice big shot of Valium temporary solved the issue – I waited about a decade long after both parents passed on and finally at 60 while in rehab 2018 and started the process and by  2019 summer did the deed SRS-2 at the Kamol Hospital in Bangkok Jun.29 with other numerous surgeries since then as of 2020 –  there’s never been a hug really of support ,the odd good luck I barely remember – you have to be strong enough to want to be your real self ultimately , the dysphoria was very powerful  – hormones take years to see final results and it’s not how much you take – for the most part in the last 8 months I’m always addressed as ” Mam ” It’s very natural now out and about and I’m no beauty at 63  but people sense  whether you look and feel comfortable in your own skin and being natural without overdoing it with clothing or makeup – I’ve basically since 5 years old have experienced well over a 1/2 century of gender dysphoria – I cheated lots with denial when younger but start by getting a diagnosis from a psychologist 1 st then get a referral from your GP to go see an endocrinologist for hormones after if you really want the change – I did everything with no regrets other than bad voice surgery and it’s a rough road really and the changes take years like a second female puberty takes a basic 5 years like from 10 – 15 years old CIS female and I’m on my 3 rd year and  took plant estrogens  for 20 plus years on my own cheating without medical proper care , but it still takes  years later to see full development on the real McCoy Estradiol like a CIS born female and up till 25 years old still developing  into the whole woman-hood they become – if your truly Transgender female you’ll know in your soul – I’m way happier now – be true to yourself and you’ll be better off despite the odd early transitioning  comment by a stranger that may be hurtful – XO – Krystal , Vancouver , BC

• This reply was modified 2 years ago by Krystal Garven.
• This reply was modified 2 years ago by Krystal Garven.
• This reply was modified 2 years ago by Krystal Garven.