I have purged twice, like many here, and regretted it. The reasons were out of fear that family would find those clothes and it would confirm, in their mind, I am gay. I’m cis, but in the 70’s and 80’s, there was only gay and straight. Every time they threatened to abandon me if I came home gay I knew I must not be faking masculinity well enough. My kindergarten teacher decided it would be a good idea to mention my gender dysphoria issues to my mother, so thanks to that teacher, I am enduring a lifetime of skepticism from my parents that I am still not prepared to turn into a certainty. My father is more assertive against transgenders than ever these days, making me withdraw even deeper. I love him too much to lose him over something that shouldn’t even be an issue. I don’t plan to purge again, though; just pack things up out-of-sight for a while if necessary.
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