Reply To: As my name suggests I am unsure

[Krystal Garven]

Yup ! You hit the nail right on the head , almost exactly like me , 5 years old , an unbelievable natural feeling of your soul born in the wrong physical body , a dirty trick of nature – I was born  in the late 50’s and grew up in the 60’s and I intuitively new that something was wrong , I’m sure my parents new something was going on but never talked about it  – I’d see girls at the swimming pool for example and it was more than a desire or want , it was my real gender WTF – it was a rarity if I ever got to see the bottom end equipment that was right for me – I loved arts and crafts , bright shiny colors , swimming , gymnastics ( not the hard to do muscle required gymnastics ) as a kid I knew not to make waves , stir the pot so I was forced to be a boy with a great deep dark secret – thinking about it now I started transitioning in 1981 , had a nervous breakdown , literally lost weight to a 148 lbs , basically I was dying inside parents obviously wanting me to be male and  get married , make babies for them so they got what they felt was there right as my parents , this never happened , finally at 61 long after my parents deaths I said to myself enough is enough and did everything legally and physically in 2019 – I’m not perfect mentally but I’m incredibly better off , I’m the real Transgender M to F McCoy with NO regrets – XO – Krystal