When we begin to think about our relationship to gender, it can be a very difficult matter to consider. It can be a very stressful thing to do. Our minds are tasked with keeping us safe and keeping our anxiety levels low. We resist change because change can bring about stress and anxiety. Therefore our minds will often tend to divert our attention away from what we really need to think about.
This is demonstrated by how we may think up many things to do to avoid making a difficult decision or having to deal with a difficult person.
Many here have had success in working with a therapist. What they will do is help you keep you focus on what you need to think about and the problems that ultimately need to get resolved. But, what they won’t do is figure out your course of action for you. However, there is one notable point: the therapist needs to have experience with gender issues. There are many good therapists out there, but not everyone has this focus.
I encourage you to complete your Profile page. It helps other members understand what is going on for you. Eventually all threads will sink to the bottom of the pile, but your Profile page is always readily accessible if you want to update it.
Also, if you would like to search for other members who are nearby, click on Social and then Member Directory.