You’ll be okay. It is a tough journey. Most everyone in the world wants to just “fit in” and it’s difficult when you don’t play the expected gender role. But it will be all right. Just take things a step at a time.
Group therapy isn’t that bad. It helps me a lot, and I rarely ever participate in any discussion at all. I just listen and appreciate being in a space where there is no judgment. There’s not even any pressure to pass. It’s also good to get some perspective on how wide the gender spectrum really is. It’s a perspective that you can’t get alone.
I hope you are able to find some peace. It can be done, and I know you can do it.