Please don’t turn to self-harm. We are here for you. Remember that there are help-lines you can reach out to for support, also. You have value just for being who you are, Jodi.
I used to have fleeting thoughts of just driving my car off a bridge or into a barrier to stop the hurt I felt and that I felt I was causing others. But then I’d think about how devastated the people close to me would be and realised it wasn’t the answer.
Even if they aren’t supportive right now your family do love you and want the best for you. They just don’t understand what you are dealing with yet. Do you have an opportunity to seek out a therapist who can give you support? I was able to get the extra support from mine to come out fully to my wife and daughter, and begin my own transition journey.
We have such a wonderful site here – don’t be afraid to reach out to any of us when you are feeling down.