Hi Stacy Ann, and welcome!
I’m also quite new, just joined in January, but finding the support and community here really helpful. I think you will too.
I recognise the experience of stopping, starting, purging, over and over, and how horrible if must have been making you feel about yourself.
This might help: you are who you are and there is nothing wrong with who you are. Plus the world has changed. There is no need to hide or feel shame any more.
Just sending you a friendship request now xx