I’m glad to read your introduction. I hope you’re finding good community and support here–I mean, having a non-standard gender can be really isolating sometimes, it seems to me, and I feel like social interaction can be challenging even when it goes well.
I’m non-binary and transfeminine, which it sounds like you might be as well … or perhaps you’re on a journey of transformation at your own pace and will eventually find you’ve landed entirely on the female side of things? Either way, I know it’s tricky, but I hope you’re getting some of the joy for it, too.
I work with a nonbinary therapist from out of state who’s wonderful but who, due to being non-local, isn’t covered by my insurance–but I’d certainly recommend them to anyone who’s looking for that kind of therapist. I’ve worked previously with a supportive but not especially trans-experienced cis female therapist, then a sort of LGBTQ-specializing cis female therapist, and now with my current therapist, and with each person I’ve been able to do a lot of good work, got to sort of a plateau, and then moved on to a therapist who had a deeper understanding of transgender experience.
Anyway, it’s nice to meet you here virtually, and I hope it’s all going well!