Reply To: Well this is confusing…

[LeslieAnne]

Hi , i’m Leslie , and i’ve thought about this a whole lot in my life . Dysphoria , to me is just another form someone can use to identify people who act and feel different than they were assigned at birth . I believe this feeling goes way farther back than we realize , to the womb even . I think we were balancing on a fence and were push or fell the wrong way . I know we all feel way more feminine than masculine , i know my man feelings stop at my neck and my brain doesn’t obey . When i was a child this type of behavior was not understood and looked down at , and made to feel ashamed of . As i grew older i fought it and tried to forget it , but that didn’t work and now at a later time in my life i’ve decided to embrace it , to be the person i was supposed to be , a girl . As a pre school child my mom knew i was different and didn’t mind i wore her under ware , she pinned them on me to keep them up . My dad wasn’t so understanding , he wanted his son but lived with it . I guess this is were the Dysphoria comes in . I toyed for a while with speaking with a mental health person , but felt the expense and time wasn’t in the proper direction . I decided to keep a journal of my feelings and did so for two years and came to terms with myself and except who i really am , i am at peace now with being the lady i was really mint to be , Leslie Anne , and i am glad . I only wish i had been allowed to be her much sooner , life would have been a lot easier . When we are young we are under constant supervision, guided and kept in line , i was so confused at times . Worrying about what i am is less important to me than who i am , I’m Leslie she’s in , he’s out and she’s here to stay . Here her purr .         Love to all , Leslie