Reply To: Indecisiveness in Transition

[Zachary Newcombe]

Hi Larry   I know how you are feeling. You said something that sort of blew me away    something about a phantom dick?       I used to think I was the only person that felt like I could actually have an invisible penis.  I never heard the term phantom dick before but it explains how I feel. It is so real for me that i am able to orgasm just by thought alone. I began my transition on 2002 completed by 2007. I had always dressed like a man so there was not alot of change. I elected not to have bottom surgery as did not want to loose my v. And risk loosening my clitoris.   I have been married for 32 years to a wonderful woman who tho identifies as a lesbian chooses to live with me in our small rural northern Ontario Canada as husband and wife.  We moved here so that I could present as a man with no one knowing who I used to be. Havingvtop surgery and a hysterectomy and starting HRT was enough for me. I too am a top and have that desire for particular positions and intimacy.   I have a very strong libido and as I have been fortunate enough to find a packing product that gives me a satisfying package in my clothing. I never take it off.  Other products are out there that can complete your desires. I found them and I hope to think I’m not the only transman that has the need for reality or as close as I can get to it. Anyways thank you for broadening my vocabulary  – phantom dick –