Ahoj from Czechia

[Ayenne Teajay]

Dear people,

I am a 39-year-old transsexual woman, on HRT since December 2012 and with orchiectomy in January 2017 which, at the moment, makes me almost 8 years in transition, and 3.5 years semi-post-op.

This is my first time joining such a forum in a very long time. I’ve been away from all kinds of trans websites because in the years after my orchiectomy, everything became a total mess and I still don’t feel good – something generally got wrong due to infection after this poorly performed surgery, also my HRT doesn’t feel right ever since but I don’t know what to change in order to improve it because my former country of residence (where the surgery was done) is a true homophobic and transphobic hell without competent health specialists and entirely corrupted… everything. As a consequence, I had to self-medicate. After the surgery, I lost hope that things will get better because my body seemed to become masculine again and now it has less feminine proportions than just before the surgery despite the HRT which seems to be properly adjusted, according to all the charts… so I just stopped looking for information and the depression overwhelmed me entirely.

Now that I live in a much better country, I could find some strength to keep going so finally, I am joining a trans forum again. If my experience could be any helpful – feel free to ask me questions.

I hope that I could gain a better understanding of how to improve my condition since my current endo doesn’t seem to understand my concerns well.

 

[Anonymous]

Ayenne. I am glad that you have been able to rise up. Do not lose hope, I been there a lost hope of ever finding help. I’m out late in life, trans-male. I just starting my journey to finding my self. My family of 6 living siblings now know. At first it was my younger sister who had a problem with me being transgender, Its been about 4 months since coming out, my family has come round to it and are being supportive. My best friend is very supportive, Still I have a long road ahead of me. Resilience is my friend. I am a survivor and so are you. I am sorry you have had such a terrible time early on in transition, Peace and love be with you all ways.

[Ayenne Teajay]

Hi Jace,

Good that you’ve made the first step. I was waiting for too long before I took action and this turned out to be a major obstruction although I still managed to get a proper vision and I never or extremely rarely get uncovered by people but still, the dysphoria is anything but objective.

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