- Erase my past
- I admit my transgender designation
- Reveal my transgender identity to a select few.
- June 26, 2020 at 8:56 am #85895Lawren PeaceParticipant
I’ve been wondering how many people that transition (or are transitioning) no longer identify as transgender, and how many use that identifier in public or in certain situations.
- March 11, 2022 at 7:52 pm #128539
- January 12, 2022 at 2:58 pm #124818Jessica AlexandriaFREE
Hello…I’m sorry, I’m going against the grain and all that but here it is… I wouldn’t hide my past life..after i get the guts to come out..but i wouldn’t offer the information either, except to a lover or friend. I’m a girl..I’m going to be a girl, transition and all..and i don’t think anyone except a lover or friend needs to know. If someone asks, I will probably tell them.
- February 6, 2022 at 2:59 pm #126326Jackie RusalkaSILVER
Interesting, and something I’ve thought a lot about lately. I agree that certainly I would be a woman. But having carried this burden my entire life and seeing how acceptance is slowly making its way through society, I feel that the best way to support my sisters is to speak out, to be an advocate whenever the chance arises. I know it’s a personal choice, but I feel that transphobia and discrimination will not subside unless people forcefully speak out. I would like to be part of that change.
- February 6, 2022 at 3:13 pm #126327
- September 8, 2021 at 9:31 pm #117982
Mtf here. I consider myself to be a woman. I like girl better but a girl of my age is a woman. I’m 39. So, I interchange the two depending on how I’m feeling. When I feel gender dysphoria or the “no you’re not” voice gets going I use transwoman. It reminds me that I’m a woman but there’s no right way to be a woman and it helps remind me that transition is not a light switch and after 39 years living as male no matter how I transition those 39 years will have an impact on the end result…I just need to make sure that impact is positive.
And once in a while I’m not feeling particularly feminine or anything really…I just know I’m female and that’s it…I’ll use transgender. It’s usually use it when I’m worn out after a long day or super busy and don’t have time to worry about gender. I’m transgender. It reminds me that when I have the time I’ve got stuff related to transitioning to do.
- August 30, 2021 at 10:29 am #117690Alex LouiseFREE
I will always be transgender, I have given this much thought over time. I stopped calling myself a woman because I’m not, neither genetically or in reality. I cannot and never can bare children, experience periods or an upbringing as a girl. No puberty, no lifelong peer bonds. However, I call myself ’embracing my femininity’ and abandoning any male delusions, conditioning, gender characteristics or social position. I suspect some might find my opinion a little confusing…but honestly, inside I’m a woman, in everyway I can imagine it. But to the outside world? They will judge me to be what they feel I am, I have no control over that. What I strive for is to be a good feminine person.
- August 29, 2021 at 8:33 pm #117670CJ PFREE
I cannot hate him because he kept me alive and (relatively) sane to get to this point.
I really admire that perspective. I cannot say I have gotten to that point yet. I have been full of self-loathing for the past other person. But I voted to acknowledge being trans because the transition has been such a beautiful journey that was so much more than the outcome I wanted. It included self-discovery, new and exquisite sisters, and learning bit by bit what it meant to allow joy in my life and what it was to feel emotionally safe and at home. So you saying that the “him” allowed you to get to this point, is so profound. I need to reflect on that. Thank you.
- August 30, 2021 at 6:46 am #117678
You are most welcome. I’m delighted if my words have provided you with “grist for the mill” of your self exploration.
I’m totally with you on the unanticipated joys of coming out and transitioning. I’ve been so heartened by the acceptance I’ve received from old friends, the delight of meeting new ones, finding surprising inclusion in many women’s spaces I’ve encountered, enjoying so many small delights and perks of womanhood that I had no clue would be coming my way.
- June 18, 2021 at 5:12 am #110459Anonymous
I will always be “Transgender”, no matter how well my procedures turn out. I very much hope to “pass”, but passing is a cosmetic goal, not an eraser of my past. I have experienced the hardships of desires, how they altered my relationships with men and woman alike. My struggles with transgender desires has taught me so much about people and society, and it has lead me onto a path of tolerance that I am very proud of.
How can I after all I have been through even consider stepping away from all my brothers that want to be sisters. Who else knows how sincere this desire really is; how beautiful & harmless, and yet so despised by the ignorant.
I am going to spend the rest of my life trying to educate the ignorant; primarily by being the best woman I can be, and by being proud of my courage to be that woman.
- June 18, 2021 at 5:36 am #110461
Yes, yes, 1000 times yes! You’ve captured the essence of it all IMO.
“Passing” is a cosmetic goal, my past remains. I cannot hate him because he kept me alive and (relatively) sane to get to this point.
Now I want to share this sincere, beautiful, and harmless joy with everyone, and work to make space for everyone (trans or otherwise) similarly to express who they are in glorious freedom.
I am 100% woman, and 100% proud to be trans.
Thank you for speaking so eloquently!
- June 18, 2021 at 6:56 am #110466Anonymous
Thank you Stefanya,
I do believe that there is a large component of cosmetics to various feminizing procedures. The procedures themselves are very frequently a critical and medically necessary aspect of treatment and therapy. I am scheduled to have several days of facial feminization surgeries performed. These are critical to me; for my emotional and mental well being. I have a strange mix of really wanting to look like a girl, and wanting to not look like the male I was. These procedures hopefully allow me to more fully embrace my “being a woman”. As with most everyone, my years as a male had many unpleasant elements either directly, or tangential to my Gender Dysphoria. I really need these procedures so I can stop having flash-backs to the earlier me every time I somewhat see him in the mirror.
So, I didn’t mean to disparage feminizing procedures. These procedures are critical to many of us. The need to “PASS” is an imposed additional criteria to these procedures. Please don’t make the mistake of determining success or failure on the ease of “PASSING”. I am trying to be more comfortable in my skin; if I “PASS”, great, if I am happy: now that is my goal.
- June 18, 2021 at 7:32 am #110468
I hear all that.
Once I finally started transition (about 3 years ago, mid 2018), maybe the biggest surprise for me was how comfortable in my own skin I now feel. I was miserable as a guy, hated all the demands and expectations. This is me.
When I used to ponder some kind of transition, I was always afraid I’d make an ugly woman (my Ex even said as much when I came out to her). The first time I saw myself in the mirror after shaving my beard and wearing my first wig was a revelation for me, I couldn’t believe it was me looking back, I suddenly realized it looked like what I’d always wanted to see, and it felt soooo good.
So both me and my Ex were wrong, I think I’m pretty darn cute when I’m dolled up femme. And now 3+ years on, with HRT, more and more I just see Stef in the mirror regardless of whether I’m dressed up or not.
Best of luck in your journey towards yourself, I’m excited for you.
- June 18, 2021 at 12:37 pm #110486Anonymous
Thank you Stefanya,
You are pretty darn cute in your picture. You have a nice happy face and an beaming smile.
Maybe I would be OK also, but that is part of the unique elements to an individual’s transition. For some reason I don’t want to see much of the other me anymore. Maybe it is because I know that person so intimately, I know his sins and his failures; and while I thank him for getting me to this point in life, I truly need to be “not him” as much as possible.
I am trying to bury more than a few bad memories; I often wonder how foolish that is. If I only achieve a piece of freedom from earlier self, it will all be well worth it.
I hope to have a smile as bright as your’s when I finish.
- June 18, 2021 at 1:44 pm #110487
Thank you so much for the compliments on my smile. that made my day! I do kind of go around grinning like an idiot a lot, just so thrilled to get to be me finally.
I get it about not wanting to experience him any more. I don’t want that either, no desire ever to present as masculine again. I guess I was just fortunate that my features have allowed me to see myself as I want to without resorting to anything beyond HRT as yet. I do wish my hair would come back more so I wouldn’t need a wig, I’m working on that.
I also get it about wanting to escape or bury parts of the past. I wish you the best in finding that for yourself.
- June 21, 2021 at 10:13 am #110628
I have read all of your comments and I can relate, I do hate the use of the word, PASSING, I don’t know
if you are transitioning to be a woman or a man, I am a MTF, using the word passing is going to make you
feel that are not good enough to ever percent yourself in public or make you feel you will never get to be true yourself because you don’t look like a model, STOP IT, people come in all different shape and sizes, do I wish I was prettier, you work with what Mama gives you. It has been said, and I’m going say it again don’t
explain things to others or less you want too, the more you make excuses more insecure you feel about yourself, I’m at the point where I don’t give a sh** what people say it’s their problem not mine.
I will say it again be the best person you can be and you like who you are.
Love you all
- June 17, 2021 at 8:15 pm #110451Rachel MontgomeryFREE
I have not tranistioned, but if I did I would love to pass as a cis-woman. That said, even if I did pass I would tell people closest to me about my past. I don’t expect it would be something I had to worry about, because I probably wouldn’t pass and everyone would probably “just know”.
- June 18, 2021 at 6:19 am #110465
For me it’s not about “passing” per se, I’m not looking to fool or “trap” anyone.
I am a woman, want to be seen as a woman, I make every effort to portray that reality; and, because of my past and how my body has betrayed me, there are things about me that, in the eyes of others, deny that reality.
I’m also proud to be trans, and I don’t care who knows it. That doesn’t change how I wish to present and be perceived.
I want to change the rules and assumptions.
- June 18, 2021 at 10:20 am #110473Rachel MontgomeryFREE
For me, filters are not at al about passing (though I’d love to look like my filtered photos). For me, filters are about cloaking my identity. I am still in the closet. I don’t want anyone or any bot to recognize me. I think the filter changes my appearance enough for that, while still looking “like” ME.
I am not doing it to catfish anyone, or to make anyone jealous, and I am not doing it because I think I look “bad” (though ai don’t look as good as the filtered photos). I have been fairly pleased with my en femme photos.
- May 18, 2021 at 2:28 am #102604Polly StewartFREE
I want add one thing to what I’ve already posted. I’m proud to have been a man and to have live a good life as my former self. I’m proud of being compassionate and caring of people around me! I’m proud of my achievements and education and all the good things I did for others.
However, I’m now a woman and I will endeavour to be the same good person… Mary help me!
- May 18, 2021 at 9:15 am #102627Anonymous
I feel the same way. Did my best to be a man, was kind to others and built two careers over 50 years.
During most of thiose years I was not going to be allowed to be Lukcia, and I sure couldn’t afford to become Lukcia.
I can now become Lukcia, I can now afford to become Lukcia.
I could have malfunctioned years ago when Gender Dysphoria was a daily torment. I carefully fed my inner girl with short vacations to perform my “Happy Girl Dance”. Junior year in college I took a semester of Belly Dancing; gosh, I came so close to throwing everything male away. I learned to belly Dance like a girl, but at the end of the semester when we were suppose to put on a dance show for the college, the instructor won’t let me be a girl dancer.
So many times I could have malfunctioned. Retired as a field Grade Officer in the US Army and eventually as an USDA Federal Agent. Society wasn’t ready for me back then; hell, I wasn’t ready for me back then. But now!! Watch out Girl.
- May 6, 2021 at 12:42 pm #101558Mx. MargauxCHAT CREW
I avoid the use of ‘or’ with reference to my own gender or gender identity. Hence, I introduce myself as non-binary person. It is important to point out that ‘transgender’ and ‘transitioning’ do not mean changing from one gender, or one gender indentity, to another (California Law states this). Each journey is different – there are no absolutes.
- May 6, 2021 at 3:01 pm #101561
- May 6, 2021 at 12:15 pm #101554
I am a woman, I have always been a female.
However I was betrayed by biology: the sort of body I was identified as having at birth did not match the physiological characteristics traditionally associated with that designation; In the eyes of many in the culture at large, I therefore cannot “really” be a woman.
I was also betrayed by the culture: when I was identified at birth, I was then shunted into behaviors and roles that did not suit me, and shamed when I dared to suggest I’d rather do something different.
I am no longer afraid or ashamed, I am now taking steps to bring my uncooperative body more into alignment with who I am.
Thus I am trans, and proud to be so. I don’t care who knows it. But I am foremost a woman and wish to be seen that way.
- April 28, 2021 at 5:48 am #100858Polly StewartFREE
I only ever introduce myself as Polly. If I’m asked ‘the’ question I will say I’m a transgender woman.
I am a woman now and have been living fully as such for nearly a year now. I start HRT very soon and for me there is no looking back. In all my daily dealings with a plethora of folk I’m Polly and nothing else!
- April 28, 2021 at 3:36 am #100836Natasha BelleFREE
Except for Mum and one of my sisters we are all 6ft plus I’m the shortest. Even so I’ve had enough lying about my past and identity. If someone asks I’ll tell them, if they don’t that’s good too. So I’m a woman but also transgender, it’s nothing to be ashamed of after all.
I’ve been presenting female for eighteen months and at work for eight until I took severance. Had exactly one issue with a co-worker, who it turned out, had more complaints on her record than the other 50 employees combined. Being in a union was a fantastic help.
- April 17, 2021 at 9:29 pm #100002Maria MartellaFREE
i am tall almost 6 feet tall but i am very feminine, i drank too much last week and told my boss and his understudy about my desires, my boss knew something already as i spoke to him about it last year, the understudy did not know but was very intriged when i walked in monday morning, i am out but cant just walk in with a dress on, consultation is needed first.
thanks for listening
- June 18, 2021 at 5:02 am #110458Anonymous
If I read you correctly: you were very drunk and told your top two levels of supervisor that you were transgender? Just a word of caution: Getting drunk with your supervisors is rarely a good idea. A sober discussion on the same topic might work or not, but a drunken one is fraught with bad o0utcomes.
Transgender desires unfulfilled are often associated with heavy drinking. Mine was! My wife finally made me see a doctor about it. I am not sure my wife’s desired results were: “I don’t drink anymore, but I am a girl!”
Seek transgender counseling, but also seek help to control the drinking, especially with your supervisory chain-of-command.
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- March 19, 2021 at 2:43 pm #95916
I will definitely identify as transgendered. I have a 8 year old son so I want him to be comfortable if he still wants to call me daddy if that’s what he is comfortable doing. I don’t believe you ever stop transitioning. It is a life long journey. I’ve always felt like I was put in the wrong boody. I have always felt that I was ment to be a girl. But I want my son to make his own choice about what he wants to call me.
- March 11, 2021 at 12:47 pm #95538
After having revealed my feelings to my new primary physician, I discovered that my official medical record maintained at her practice had been changed to state that my gender is “Female Transgender”. I find it interesting and supportive that today the medical community openly recognizes ladies like us. By the way, doctor told me that being a “FT” is good for me both physically and mentally. That is pretty much a prescription to maintain and pursue my current 24/7 lifestyle. I hope this note provides a bit of encouragement to those who may be reluctant to admit their reality.
Carla [Female Transgender]
- March 11, 2021 at 7:27 am #95523Alicia ArballoSILVER
For me I’m transitioning later in life, I think it’s just important to be honest and open. Closeted so long, it’s so important to own me. I also feel that while I feel like a woman, there are woman things I’ll never have the experience to relate to, childbirth, menstrual cycles, etc. I’m good with stating I’m trans. I’m part of a multi binary platform and that feels wonderful.
- March 9, 2021 at 11:54 pm #95401Denise BrownFREE
I am transgender M to F and have chosen to live my life partially transitioned to female . I have been on hormones and blockers for 3.5 years. I am older , 64, and am married to an accepting woman who loves me just the way I am.I have been married twice before and have raised 8 children.My family knows about me and has for the most part been partially accepting but prefer me to be in male mode when around them. I identify as a female but live my live in both genders , so if I were to be labeled one of the 3 choices , I believe I would be transgender . I do not plan to have bottom surgery but have had a tracheal shave and butt implants along with electrolysis . I have been fortunate that I can pass as a woman and a androgynous looking man.
Even if I have bottom surgery and chose to be a full time woman , I believe I will always be transgender and would probably not go stealth , but would let people know only on a need to know basis. I do have a long life past history appearing male and that will never be erased.
- March 9, 2021 at 7:57 am #95294Rachel QuinlanFREE
- February 28, 2021 at 8:09 am #94852
I hide my past. I’m not worried about my past at all anymore and have been fully transitioned now for 11 years. I pass as a woman with flying colors and am proud of that and never let anyone know anything. People call me ma’am all the time and I love it because I know I’m doing well. I never felt comfortable in a male body other than having a penis I was always a girl anyway. Not having a penis anymore is nice I feel more like a woman that way.
- February 27, 2021 at 9:26 pm #94837Jemma SchumpertFREE
For me, this is more complicated than I ever imagined. If I can transition, I will finish coming out to my family, a select group of friends and acquaintances, and then move on, both literally and figuratively. Unfortunately, my past identity overseas, and as a Marine, could lead to some terrible consequences for several friends, family members, and a few comrades in arms. As much as I would like to just put it out there on facebook or twitter or others, I have to consider the whole picture. Equally, I just want to be ME. Being ME means not being identified by my sexuality, genitalia, or other irrelevant norms. I just want to be Jemma, the old lady next door. Nothing more, nothing less. If I develop deep relationships I will be honest and tell them my truth, but for all others…just Jemma.
- February 18, 2021 at 5:03 am #94284Rachel LatourFREE
This might not always be a popular opinion, but I firmly believe that after transition we need to stop being trans and experience the true freedom of being who we are. I didn’t go through all the pain and difficulties of transition so I could spend the rest of my life as a trans woman. I am a woman, I have always been a woman, despite the body I was given at birth. I live my day to day life as I choose, just like any CIS person does. I don’t worry about passing any more than any CIS woman does. I am who I am, and there is a real freedom in that.
- February 21, 2021 at 4:01 pm #94452Lawren PeaceFREE
Rachel, I wasn’t concerned with whether a perspective is popular or not, I wanted to explore the topic for my benefit. I am in the process of transitioning as to how I identify, tho I won’t be getting any surgeries in the foreseeable future.
I tend to agree with you in theory, though it may be a while before I would do that for myself. I am currently acting as advocate as well, so it seems to preclude the option of complete identity change in the circles that I travel in. That being said, people ahve been so accepting of me as feminine that I feel affirmed and free to be my authentic self, and not to concern myself with their ideas of calssification.
THanks for your thoughts, very enlightening!
- February 14, 2021 at 4:15 pm #94109CathyFREE
The reason that I picked transgender is, when I come out to my children, it would be ok with me if they still called me “Dad.” I was there for them as their father when they were growing up and I can picture them wanted to refer to me as that after transition.
- February 8, 2021 at 11:02 pm #93802Anonymous
<b>i am a transgendered woman</b>
- February 2, 2021 at 2:44 pm #93569SharonFREE
- February 11, 2021 at 9:01 am #93910
- February 1, 2021 at 6:53 pm #93535Arthur MartinFREE
I don’t flaunt who I am I dress like me people ask about my past I tell them who I was and who I am now yeah I tell them that’s the old me or that chick left along time ago
- February 1, 2021 at 7:03 pm #93537
- January 15, 2021 at 8:23 pm #92766Loki SamudratiraFREE
Like so many of you, I just want to get to a point that I don’t have an uphill battle to openly be a woman in society. However, I have a backstory that I will not be able to erase and biological markers that won’t go away. So, where I want to be at is accepted as a binary woman but not have to fear for my life every time a friend finds out that I might not have been born a woman.
I haven’t started transition for reasons not under my control at the moment, but I plan to. The journey to me is affirming and celebrating my unfolding as a woman. But, the truth of the matter is, no matter how happy I may be, I will be a trans-woman. Even with the GD right now and all the huge chaos realizing myself as a trans-woman has been and will be, I wouldn’t throw that away. I’m me and expressing myself, little bit by little bit. I don’t want to hide things, but I don’t want to flaunt it either. I didn’t choose to be trans, but I do choose to heal and be wholy myself, which comes with an acceptance that I will leave “footprints” of my transformation. It’s already cost me some friends and plenty of initial hardship. I don’t have to create more unnecessarily but I am not going to be ashamed of me.
That sounds bolder and braver than I feel, but I see no better choice than to embrace me, accept that I am a different woman than those born as one and live as the best woman I can be!
- February 18, 2021 at 5:58 am #94285
I am a transgender woman as of right now, I am completely out of the closet, I do my remodeling company as a transgender woman, I go shopping, to the Doctors, church and to family events, so that one day maybe I will drop the transgender word, but until time passes and it is no longer new to people who knew the old me get use to the woman I am becoming or became. I know who I am now and have never like who I was, but I love who I have brought to the world, I feel I can breath now, and if someone asks me, why or about my journey, and not rude about it I will talk to them to educate them as much as possible, but most people treat me as any other woman, so I just assume they just see a woman.
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- January 13, 2021 at 10:48 am #92671Bobbi Sue JeffriesFREE
- January 2, 2021 at 1:19 pm #92289Andrea JayneSILVER
My history is my history. But I’ve been Andrea all my life. Only I knew it. And now my spouse does. I don’t know if it’s important for a label. Who I am is my truth. For now I’m still male. Andrea is there but not fully out. My goal is to someday be introduced as Andrea Jayne. Whether that comes with a clarification will be determined by the situation and my truth at that moment. AJ.
- January 2, 2021 at 4:59 am #92284Sandy WellsSILVER
well it was like this for me when i was very young at 4 or 5 i started to have dreams i was girl and i started to sneck and wear my mother panties and would watch my mother closely about how she world dress and do her make up and other things i wanted so much to be like her and over time i keep feeling i was a girl and just always felt like i was one so i would say i’m a women
- January 1, 2021 at 11:07 pm #92279Radia KHFREE
for me its the fact that my experiences are not that of a cis person at all. I will never relate to them. I feel and think completely differently and I do not want to pretend thats how i think and feel. I am proud of being trans despite it all, and am fine with being open with it. I would seriously never choose to be cis. I worked too hard for that. I know some people see it differently and thats okay. perhaps my opinion is because i dont exactly want to be considered either woman or man. I am just a TS/TG person.
- December 21, 2020 at 3:04 am #91782Anonymous
To be honest, I do not like identifying as trans-anything, because it makes me feel very artificial. I want to identify as just being a man. Of course, I will never be a “real” man because I was born female, after all.
That being said, I feel like a snake, a deceiver, a demon even. I don’t want this and want to fight it, but I think doing that is making me very suicidal and unhappy with myself. I want to be a cisgendered, normal woman…..but I am not.
- December 18, 2020 at 9:16 am #91690Anonymous
Give up my past ?
Hell no !
It is what defines me on who I’m today . Events over my life whether those experiences were positive or negative is where I needed to be at the moment in time . Those experiences from my past aided me in the future when things would get patchy and still do . They are a valuable resource . I forgot about those expiences and outcomes over the years until I found this site , effects of this have already started positive changes creating new experiences and renewed love for my self .
I don’t disclose who I’m when asked and any male relation I get into I make sure he knows that I’m a post op trans woman and leave it up him on whether he wants to continue commuicating , if not that is his choice and no skin off my nose . Anything else it’s always female . Even on forms that I have to fill out . Labeling myself is one thing , having others hang a label over me is something totally different .
- December 4, 2020 at 3:47 pm #91329
- November 26, 2020 at 11:51 pm #91125Jemma SchumpertFREE
My dream would be to transition completely and live life fully and without explanation as a woman. I would only reveal my transition to those I include in my inner circle of true friends and anyone that I might become romantically involved with. It is already annoying and tiresome to have to “explain” myself using sexual terms and I anticipate the constant asterisk of Trans before woman would be beyond irritating.
Having said all that, I fully realize that in the strictest sense I will never be a “true” woman. After all my DNA will not change, and the half century of being a man will leave a most indelible mark regardless of how much I erase. Because of that, I would feel dishonest in my close personal relationships if I were to not tell the truth. In fact, at first it was difficult to adjust my voice since it felt dishonest to me. After years of lying about my identity and hiding my true self, I long for the day that I can just live my life and not have to explain at all other than my choice of shoes!!
- November 15, 2020 at 11:30 am #90668Anonymous
I am an older trans female and even though I have a male size body I can pass as female when dressed and with makeup on. So to the casual observer I am female. Due to work constraints I have not done my gender marker change yet and so when I have to present my identification it becomes an obvious subject and I have to explain. I look nothing like my driver’s license photo. But if a person I meet does not know my former life then I am not going to tell them I lived in a male body. I will only tell someone that needed to know.
Would I tell a potential date? Yes I would if I had not physically transitioned. I think that a lot of the young trans girls that get hurt when dating did not reveal this information when they started and the guy became angry and enraged when they found out.
- November 13, 2020 at 8:47 pm #90630
Typically I say that I identify as transgender and non-binary. I rarely use the term trans woman as I feel it isn’t specific enough for me. It may be for others, but that isn’t my concern.
I lived 66 years as Don and nearly 6 as DeeAnn. For me it would be silly to pretend that those 66 years did not exist. I can’t see circumstances that would force me to change my mind…
- November 13, 2020 at 5:04 pm #90627
- November 13, 2020 at 12:35 pm #90611April KingAMBASSADOR - EDITOR
At 62 I have too much history, my beautiful children and wife and so many good memories to ever want to forget who I was. As has been said below, I can’t change the past, so why deny it to those who ask. I want to move forward as the person I want to be, but I love my family and I would never deny our history together.
- August 31, 2020 at 9:51 am #88318Anonymous
Well done Erica. You be who you are. Stand tall be strong. I just getting started. This morning my sister confessed she had told the rest of the family about me being transgender. ftm. She wasn’t to say anything, until I was ready to tell them my self. But she did. To my surprise they are ok with it. And will be supportive, and love me no matter what. She said its ok to talk to them about it, not to be afraid. So I am feeling better about contacting the rest of my family. But I will do it my way, one at a time, as to not overwhelm my self with to much at a time. My sister wants to be there for me when I go for surgeries. We will take it one step at a time, She is afraid of flying so I don’t know if she will go with me when the time comes. But that’s not happening anytime soon. I told her I forgive her for what she did, and family is for ever. I come from a big family a total of 8 siblings 7 still living. And I love them all.
- August 31, 2020 at 8:10 am #88314Erica MitchellFREE
I am 3 years into HRT and have been living as female gender for 2 years, but I consider and refer to myself as transgender and always will, even after having bottom surgery (hopefully, some day). This is my own personal feeling and not a judgement on anyone else, but I feel in my case that I love and respect women too much to try to claim that I am just like them. I grew up as a male, so I don’t know what it’s like to grow up female, have never had to deal with menstruation or the possibility of getting pregnant, etc.
That being said, I am proud to call myself transgender and am not afraid to proclaim it or talk about it with anyone. I must add that in my case it’s hard to do otherwise because I’m 6’4″, broad shouldered, with big feet and a deep voice, so I stand out at a distance as trans, rather than cis gendered. This fact prevented me from summoning up the courage to transition until fairly late in life, but now that I have made that decision I know that it is the best decision I ever made. So, I can’t ever “pass”–okay, I have long since made my peace with that. I don’t give a damn what other people may think of me. I do my best to look as feminine as I can whenever I walk out my door–clothes, hair, make up, jewelry, etc. , and actually get a surprising amount of compliments, although almost exclusively from women. Many guys seem to be rather uncomfortable around me, but despite living in a very rural and fairly conservative area, no one has ever hassled me. The only time I’ve ever been insulted to my face in the 2 years since I came out was in liberal Portland, Oregon–go figure!
- August 29, 2020 at 8:33 am #88262
- August 29, 2020 at 2:42 am #88243Anonymous
You go girl! Own it like the proud lady you are. 🙂
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- August 29, 2020 at 2:52 pm #88268
- August 28, 2020 at 11:54 pm #88241Anonymous
I will never deny my past. That said, I don’t feel the need to tell the world either. My past is what brought me to where I am today, and to deny my past is to deny who I am. I am proud of the person I am now, and the person I was before Jenni. But my past does not dictate my future interaction with the world, I do and my future belongs in the hands of me, Jenni, the woman I have, in truth, always been.
- August 7, 2020 at 3:17 pm #87571Anonymous
Hello My name is Jace Valen Wesley I am Transgender man. And I to am gender identity late in life, I’ve been coming out to close friends and family. I live in Thunder Bay Ontario Canada. Right now I am getting very frustrated trying to find doctors to talk to to help me get started on hormone replacement and to have top surgery done as soon as possible. My life is a night mare coming out this late in life, makes me feel like I am running out of time to enjoy the rest of my life as the real me, Being unhappy for 50 years, hiding who I am was not fun. I just want to be me to be happy I could live another 40 or 45 years, and I do not want to live it as I am. I need help any one who can point me in the right direction to get it. Would be very much appreciate. I need a friend
- August 7, 2020 at 12:08 pm #87567
Hey everyone. I have tried to leave my past behind but people just won’t leave me alone. All of the born females I know fully accept me and really make an effort to accept me. Honest help with make-up and clothing are the biggest plus, but it all comes down to you have to be who you are. I help with legal hasssels some of my friends have and put them in contact with resources as much as I can (I am also a social worker). Any time you challenger the status quo you can be assured you will have problems. Just be you.
- August 6, 2020 at 9:27 pm #87551
While I have no plans to physically transition, my social transition is essentially done. The only thing left would be changing my personal documents, but I don’t see a lot of benefit in that. The vast majority of people that I have met since I retired and relocated to the SoCal desert only know me as DeeAnn. Very few have ever met Don. I do leave my house sometimes as Don, but that is rare and usually due to expediency. Occasionally someone will ask about being transgender and I will answer accordingly, unless someone wants to ask medical questions. Unless you are a medical professional and I’m in your office, I will not answer those questions.
Anyway, when asked about pronouns, I always say she and hers.
- July 31, 2020 at 3:02 pm #87171Cindy ReborneSILVER
I am transitioning late in life. My old friends have given me constant rebuttal. It has not changed my ultimate. Once I came out to them it was very liberating. I only go by Cindy now. I listen to positive affirmations and now have more confidence. I’ve had my moments but since I started HRT, the SWORD of Damocles no longer hangs over my head. Just enjoy your real self.
- July 16, 2020 at 1:22 pm #86803
- July 16, 2020 at 6:37 am #86796
Its a great question I believe I will always be a transgender woman. This life long battle has just worn me out. I was not born with the body that matched my brain. I have to accept I will never be considered a “woman’ by society in general. It is enough that this community does accept me . I no longer have any shame about who I am. That was huge for me . Trying to explain to others out side this community WHY I feel this way is just getting tiresome. I know they will never understand. How could they? It must be wonderful to be born with a body and brain that were in sync with each other . No matter how much success I ever achieved in my life, my gender identity always came into question by me. I hid it from most and only expressed it when i got tired of hiding. That should of been settled at birth so long ago. I guess I am still a little angry about having to still deal with this issue. It just will not go away. Maybe the reason for these feelings i have are getting so much more intense is a reminder that this issue needs to be resolved. I have no problem defending or even advocating for those who have our issue because these feelings are real and you in this community are proof. We do have to work together an support each other so that future generations that may have to deal with this issue can get the help they need before their bodes start to change. Just a few thoughts Luv Stephanie
- July 16, 2020 at 2:35 am #86795
Wow such great comments so far. I especially like Joy’s line about seeing a stranger in the mirror in male mode. I have those feelings as well, and when I look at JaiymeLynne I see myself, if that makes sense. I think people from my past will have to know, then if they accept me, I will accept that. New people in my life, as I get to know, build relationships, if I get close enough I think I would come out as transgender. If Iwere to have GRS, then I believe I am a woman then, and would live as and be a woman to everyone. Not sure if that is in my future, but things change as we move along the path.
- July 15, 2020 at 11:54 pm #86792Patrice Sav 18FREE
Great poll question. This is a question hugely on my mind right now. I’m known to a lot of people in my community and people are going to notice as my changes take place. I think it would be easier to leave the past behind if I could but that might hurt the people I’m close with and in my case it’s not really possible. I’m 6 weeks into hrt so trans here I come!
- July 13, 2020 at 7:00 am #86659Miss Cloé fulfilledMANAGING AMBASSADOR
I have no problem revealing my being transgender, but it’s not my lead story. Basically it’s on a need to know basis. If it somehow builds up a relationship either business, friend, romantic or otherwise then I will likely reveal it. If it could be destructive of such then why do it? But, to the question about community. I have no problem representing community as a member, whether I do it as an advocate I’m not sure. I’d need some convincing to go there.
- July 12, 2020 at 11:40 pm #86645SophieFRMANAGING EDITOR
I think there are many answers that could be made here.
My transition is not complete and still waiting for the virus chaos to end so it surgey can be scheduled. Three appoinments canceled in the past three months for the run up meeting with all staff involved in the procedure.
When I found it essental to tell my family, and specifically with my son and daughter, I told them that I can only be their father until the day I die albeit I didn’t wish to be ‘outed’ in public by using that word. In private my daughter will call me Dad. My son cannot agree to meet me in person and the present situation keeps it from being possible in addition. But I have good relationships with both as with the whole of my family.
I have no issue discussing who I am with anyone if they approach that with respect. I divulge my history to those I like and want in my life and only them. I know that a number of people are aware I am Transgender and fine with that being the case.
My perspective is that no other person goes about thier daily life feeling they need to explain who they are! Why should I? While I use the word Transgender to describe myself to many, I am a person who has made my choice of how I choose to life it. By subscribing to ‘Tags’ we play the game os isolation, division etc and one which I have contenton with. A tool of the media and ruling forces that can plant concepts and bad thoughts about u and other sectors of the humanity. Watch the documentary Disclosure,about and made by trans people, to see what I mean for yourself. Imagine what a powerful force we could be if we were able to unite as one, we would be a very large and powerful group to face with and try to control
Stay strong ladies and have faith and belief in yourself xx
- July 1, 2020 at 4:55 am #86013Dawn JAMBASSADOR
With transition, I would consider myself, fully, a woman and that’s how I would present & identify with new contacts. However, there is family & there are people with whom I would still need to associate that knew me as male. I’d have no choice but to identify as transgendered with them.
- June 29, 2020 at 5:14 pm #85977Abigail MajorsFREE
I am me. who I was will never change, but who I will be always is changing. I cannot change who I was born as, and I have to accept it.
That being said, even after I transition, even if I have bottom surgery, I will prefer to be referred to as who I am then, but willing to be open and honest about who I was.
I cannot change who I was. I can only work to change who I will be.
- June 26, 2020 at 10:10 pm #85913Joy DouglasFREE
I am who I am. Labeled male at birth but female in my mind and heart. I just want to be who I am without the pressure to ‘pass’ because when I look in the mirror and see Joy I smile and say I like you. When I’m in ‘guy’ mode it feels like I’m looking at a stranger.
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