Not sure what to put here. I am registered in Crossdresser Heaven but I'm more than that. For the longest time I have looked at other women and visualized myself being them. If I could snap my fingers to rid myself of my male genitalia and transform instantly into a woman, I would do it in a heartbeat. I'm currently having laser treatments to rid myself of facial, neck and chest hair. It's just a small tiny step in the transformation process but I don't know that I could take it to a higher level. So much at stake in terms of personal family relationships. At 61 yo, I don't know that I am selfish enough to risk destroying the relationships I have. I may be stuck just being a CD at this stage of life.