I started crossdressing around 13 years old and never stopped. During my early twenties I struggled a bit with gender identity. But that was back in the 80s when there was not nearly as much information out there. I realized 2 years ago that I am transgender. I came out to my wife as transgender and she does not want me to transition. This is difficult. She is accepting of my crossdressing and allows me to be "Hope" whenever I want. I tell her it is different now and there is no turning back. I am constantly exploring what is next on this tenuous journey.