I'm another one of you who is older, being born in the 50's. I most likely have repressed my desires due to marriage vows, children, and deep concern for my spouse if I were to reveal myself fully. I'm retired now and I believe that has released my desires to dress as a woman, although I'm careful and respect my wife's wishes to not show my femininity to our mutual friends. Actually, COVID has made that easier since we have avoided, for the most part, social gatherings. What will happen when social distancing relaxes and everyone sees my shoulder length hair or perhaps even longer, I don't know. By the way, I really do think I'm heading toward being/living as a female. I just feel it. I think deep down I crave it. So, regarding my first name which you may think is misspelled, it's not. It does have three capitals and then a lower case "e." Just pronounce it as you would the name Jackie. Thanks, and it's nice to be here with all of you.