While drifting through the grand mélange we call the web, somehow I suddenly found myself at the home page of this site. Occasionally things happen for a reason, the right place at the right time kind thing. So I paused to have a brief look over the site and then moved on to som...
Archive for category: Going Full Time
A spirit animal is characterized as a teacher or messenger that comes in the form of an animal and has a personal relationship to an individual. Other names might be animal guides, spirit helpers, spirit allies, power animals, or animal helpers. It is believed that you do not cho...
Something I think a lot of trans people, especially us older folks deal with is in coming to terms with our past identities. It can be a road block during transition, especially if you are not moving away, changing jobs, or your career. For me, I occupy the exact same space I did...
I finally reached a point last week where I knew it was time to start being honest with myself. I have been hiding away behind various labels for years and slowly swapping from one to the other as I edged closer to accepting who I am fully. With all the issues I’ve had in ...
A few months ago, I went to court to testify as part of my job. When I came out full-time, the legal counsel for where I work sent out a memo to all Prosecuting offices in our area, informing them of the name change and everything. I had no trouble testifying. Sometimes, it can b...
I am sitting here, having a nice glass of wine, contemplating my future. I am a torn individual. OK with my male life, yet wanting more. I just feel more alive when I am April, yet I am so self conscious of my appearance. I know I do not pass and while I am OK going out part time...
A year ago yesterday, August 13, I filed my court orders for my name and gender change; my first major step towards social transition. I had been on hormones for almost three months. Although during the first two months, I didn’t think I would fully transition. I only wanted to...
I’m coming up on a year since I came out and went full time as Stephanie. What a year it has been. I’ve never been happier and freer in my skin than I have been in the last year. If only I known prior to transition how it would affect me, I’d have done this years ...
I’m not going to tell my life’s story because it’s too painful to divulge anything before 2016 at this time. Needless to say, I’ve always thought that I was meant to be a woman. Before 2015, my wife always made clothing for me; most of the time, we had matching outfit...
Thoughts about my gender reach back as far as when I was two years old. I usually acted androgynous to femme in whatever I did in life. From the bounce in my step, wearing or using female hair tools or clothing, or how I preferred females as friends. I enjoyed many typical female...
